When I (as a pastor) Get Anxiety
Today is my day off. Fridays for our staff is a Sabbath day of rest. We aren’t supposed to work.
When I got out of bed this morning, I began to feel the pressure of anxiety creep into my consciousness. It wasn’t linked to specific thoughts or pressures of life. It was just a dull roar in the depths of my spirit. Why? I began to ask myself, “What did I leave unaccomplished this week?” Maybe I was getting stressed because I forgot something. Maybe I did something wrong or maybe I didn’t finish something successfully. What was left to accomplish before Sunday? Maybe I needed to ‘get something done’ before our services on Sunday. Is someone mad at me and I need to resolve it? I begin to focus on the mystery and try to figure it out. Thinking that if I could just resolve the issue, then everything would be at peace. All these thoughts came before my feet hit the floor. I had only been awake about 30 seconds. So this is what I did…
I went downstairs to cook some breakfast and made a decision. I will meditate on the Truth of God’s word. Scripture began to come to mind. I went to my Bible (while eating eggs and beans) and read:
Philippians 4:6 “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
After I read it, it made me feel a little better, but I still had twinges of anxiety. I know that the Bible is right, but I don’t feel it exactly. At this point, two things became evident.
- The philosophy of the world (of the devil) was ruling my mind and not allowing the Truth of God’s word to reign. I needed to read scripture and meditate on it UNTIL it saturated my thinking and changed my behavior. I needed to wash my brain with the Word of God. Get a mental picture of your brain literally being scrubbed with the ‘soap and water’ of Word of God. That sounds a lot better than Brainwashing. However, I think we should all be brainwashed by the Word of God. Let the pure Truth of God’s word cleanse our misconceptions and lies from the enemy that we believe. Let me just say that the lies and misconception of the enemy does not come from a little horned, red caped, fire breathing, urchin. It comes from comfortable surroundings, voices around us, and familiar voices within us. I needed to continue to read those verses until the essence of God’s Truth permeated and saturated my body, soul, and spirit. Sometimes this takes memorization. Sometimes it means blocking time off to sit quietly and reread text until it sinks in my soul and I start believing it to the core of my being.
- I needed to actually DO what the scripture said. The power in the scripture begins with understanding and believing it. However, it requires obedience and practice. So, I have to actually pray. I have to actually give thanks about specific blessings I have already obtained. I have to request from God.
Read the word of God, allow the Word to reshape your worldly philosophy, and then obey.
That is how I am spending my day off. Well, I will add a little NCAA basketball to the mix once priorities are taken care of.
Posted on March 16, 2012, in Daily Word and tagged anxiety, anxious, Philippians 4:6, Philippians 4:7, prayer, stress, thanksgiving. Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.
Woke up this am in a like’ frame of mind,prayed ask God to hold me close,went to my bible searching found James 1:19 knew God was speaking to me,then read your blog and knew he was really wanting to get my attention again. Read the blog to Eldon in Alaska who needed to hear..!
Wonderful! God is so good!
I am more calm whenever writing a more understandable page from notes at sermons. These bible stories do have answers relating to the world today. His word does help, Thank you God.
Very powerful….very true! As many know, that is one of my most favorite scriptures!! It means so much to me.
Wow, God is busy with the body at PSM! He woke me up early after two very stressful and busy days at work… I went right to the decaf coffee, did a few dishes, turned the lights down, sat in my chair, held my head and prayed, trying to reign in my thoughts…for I was feeling anxious as well… I needed quiet, although the house was quiet, my mind was going…. I felt urgency to go to God and decided the enemy would not steal my peace and so I went right to my Savior and asked God to give me clarity and peace of mind, not to see things from a distorted view but from HIS heart.. I picked up my devotional book and started reflecting on prior days devotions and my responses to let them sink in.
John 14:1 “Let not your heart be troubled; You believe in God, Believe also in ME.”
My responses were…
1. Learn to love above my circumstances.
2. trouble and distress are woven into the very fabric of this world, which is perishing.
3. Christ empowers us to face this endless flow of problems with good cheer…
(I still wasn’t feeling it either) ) and re-read another days verse –Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened for you” So I prayed (more like pleaded) and started todays devotion. The first few sentences stated “it is good to recognize my weakness” and the verse was from
Phillipeans 4:13 “I can do all this through Him who gives me strength. ”
Now I am getting it….I have it, washed up with the Word and theTruth and empowered to face the day!
Thanks for letting us into your thoughts and allowing us to share our thoughts with your blog!
That was just what I needed! Having a lot of anxiety because daughter paying for diets by a doctor and still not losing much. Thanks